HEL LO QWAKLIVEHJOURNAL. HOW ARE YOU DOINGFL. I MISE YOU. VERY MCUH.

I live in two places right now!

I'm moving into my new apartment in the same complex as my other place was, so they let us keep the keys to our old place while we transfer stuff. It's pretty sweet.

I also really like our new apartment. I'm sad we'll only be here for three months. =\

So...

I decided my phone was a DIRTY WHORE.

And I washed it in the washing machine.

Or, actually, I washed my jeans and left my phone in it.

It is dead.

Woe.

Basically, I've lost all my phone numbers and have no phone right now. What kills me is that I don't even know my mom's cell phone number to call and make sure she knows... I keep calling the home phone on my friend's phone, but no one answers. Just my luck.

I had a good weekend at Acen, but like... I am really depressed about losing my phone numbers. I probably won't get some of those back. Like, all my internet friends I never talk to. What if I want to randomly send them a text message?!?!? I don't know anyone's phone number anymore. I suck. Not like I'm a great friend, either. So, like, lol! Ho ho.

Anyhow, on the off chance anyone has messaged me since Friday! So did not get it.

Also, my car died. The battery is dead. I have no jumper cables. This was also Friday.

And then I got my period.

Rebekah

I got the best/sweetest text message ever last night. Even though I was SLEEPING. But it was okay, because I loved it and I didn't feel so much of a failure as a friend. =)

Now I have to finish preparing for the anime con I am going to tomorrow.

Rebekah

I'm kind of having a private mental breakdown. It doesn't help that I'm now home alone and have no desire to do anything whatsoever. Like, seriously. All the things I could do... I don't want to.

The only thing I want to do, I can't.

So, I'm kind of just stuck here. Listless.

Rebekah

I got a chocolate duck for Easter and now he's just a head! I don't know if I have the heart to eat it.

I'll miss you, Arnold! :(

Rebekah

SO, SO, SO. Fuck my life, yeah?

I've been pretty down the past two weeks. Thought I'd write about it! First, it was because I had a huge Capstone paper/project that was due on Tuesday AND I WASN'T WORKING ON IT. I waited until Saturday! Amazing, self! It was really actually depressing me that I wasn't doing anything and it was this huge thing weighing me down. I mean, it's 30% of my grade! Seriously! (It was fun, though, because I got to make a board game about war! How awesome!? And the little player pieces were TWINKLE POMS! It was pretty sweet if I do say so myself.)

Okay, okay. But that is DONE now. I should be SUPER HAPPY, RIGHT? Only sort of.

Monday night, I was sat in the middle of my living room with all my roommates around and Abby was helping me put the finishing touches on my board game. It was all a pretty spiffy life, to be quite honest. I was almost done with this shit. And then one of my roommates got the mail. A letter from Disney!

Oh, fuck.

So, to explain, my two friends and I planned on doing the Disney College Program next year so we could delay life. It was basically going to be amazing. We'd live in Florida! Make minimum wage! Have to pay off our student loans! I mean, what more could you want? Anyhow. Friend 1 (who, I'm not sure if I should actually use names or no?) got accepted like a week after her interview. I had my interview like four days after hers. And I was still waiting on hearing back! Basically, I was getting pretty anxious. Personally, I thought the interview went great. I didn't do much wrong, I thought. Honestly, the questions were easy and I answered them pretty swell-like.

But right, back to the story. A week or so ago, I got a similar letter from Disney. Only this one was to say they were processing my application! Great! My other friend didn't get one of those! Nor did Abby! Bodes well, doesn't it? Anyhow. I'm sitting and trying to focus on getting everything I need done for Capstone, because that is the culmination of my existence here at GVSU. And I get this letter. It is not a big fluffy packet of joy. It is a small letter. With one page in it. Don't you fucking love form letters?

"We regret to inform you that you have not been selected to participate in our program at this time."

Well, fuck you too, Disney. At the time, I was too busy working on homework to even be able to process what just happened. I set the letter aside and cried about it later.

The sucky part is that my friends and I had been planning on this for a long time. We'd been pretty dead set on going. Plus, Abby got accepted that Morning too. And she was so happy and excited. I feel like it's all my fault. Now none of us are going. Like, I know we always said if one of us didn't get in, none of us would go. But I almost want them to go, because otherwise I'll always feel bad about this. Not that it matters now, because it's too late.

I kind of feel like a failure. If Disney won't hire me, the HAPPIEST people ever, or what have you... then who will? No one. Because honestly, I am good for fucking nothing.

Here I come, minimum wage.

Rebekah

Fuck my life.

I had an interesting night.

I love vague posts! I like coming back to them to not have a single clue wtf I was talking about.

Anyhow, it was my friend's birthday party yesterday. Basically all day. It was wonderful. I loved it. I got to go to Build a Bear for the first time! I made a frog. And he is very stylish. I love him a lot. :) He's cuddly.

Some fascinating things happened. We'll see.

Rebekah

Lately my life has been completely overruled by anime. Specifically Naruto and Bleach. I mean, I'm going to another con! (Acen!) This time I'll be dressed up as Rin from Minato's team.

But like, all my other interests have fallen by the wayside. Like Harry Potter. And, horror of all horros, Patrick Wolf. It's funny for me to say because I was totally in love with the man for so long. But lately I've been all apathetic. It's not like I don't like his music. I mean, I don't listen to it very often anymore. It's just that I've not been interested in keeping up with all the details in his interviews and photos. He's doing a mini-tour right now and I could care less about the videos!

Most of it, I think, is because the new album isn't out yet. BUT. On his myspace page, he has a new song up! Vulture. I kind of love it. And it reminds me why I love this man.

Sigh.

In other news, my friends and I (real life friends! gasp!) are doing a Naruto RPG among ourselves. It is amazing and rules my life.

Rebekah

Oh my god! Cars are terrifying things.

I'm home on Spring Break now and I had a doctor's appointment this morning. (7:30! gross) About two seconds before I left I was informed that mom's car has difficulty starting sometimes. ...Awesome! I was just hoping it wouldn't happen to me because life loves me, right?

Anyhow, I pulled into the parking lot for my doctor's office and was parking. I was breaking and I don't know what happened but.. the engine totally cut off before I could even put it in park. The car died on me! I was so so happy I wasn't ON THE ROAD, okay. I don't even know how to turn the emergency lights on!

When I got out of my appointment I was faced with the difficulty of turning the car on. Easy instructions, really. Pop the hood and jiggle the red wire! Okay, sweet. Now.. how do you get the hood up!?!? I was failing magnificently when a nice man (about my dad's age) came by and helped me out. He even jiggled the red wire for me. Which was good because what the hell does "jiggle" mean? I would have like.. shook it a little and called it good. Except that's not what you're supposed to do. Man, instructions are amazing!

I made it home alright, but I was so terrified of the car dying again. I just don't know!

Blah.

Rebekah

I have never felt more retarded in my life.

Coming back to German after 3 years of absence? Not as awesome as you'd think, really. I just... made a fool of myself when we did partner work. Oh man. I am going to have to review so much this week. I don't want to in any way shape or form. D:

Other than that, I'm not really ready to be learning again. I guess I am now that I've actually been to class. But not really. This morning I had hours before my first class at 3 and it didn't feel like break had ended yet. But oh has it ever. This will probably be the hardest semester of my life. What with German and Capstone and my two other classes that also require lots of reading. GOODTIMES.

At least I did finally get back into Capstone. That was nice. I appreciated that. Now I can graduate.

Rebekah

WQhy is ait a new a year already? I was just getring used to writing 20087 on checks and dates and stjuff. what is this.

two more hours until the new yeaers. goods times. good times.

okay.

back to the entertaining. my paid account expierred and I can't really be bothered to renew it. oh well. bye bye userpics. I will pmiiss you.! it's been so long since I havemn't nhad a paid account.

BOO.

Ebekreebakah.

So, for Christmas, my sister got our nephew a children's cookbook and cooking utensils and stuff for him to use because he likes to help out in the kitchen. She was pretty excited and wanted to cook stuff with him. Yesterday they made pudding, which wasn't too horrible. And today they made these little fish things... It was pie crust shaped like a fish, filled with... tuna. Like, a tuna salad thing you'd make for a sandwich. It wasn't, er, so bad...

Anyhow, my nephew didn't finish his so we asked him to take it downstairs and see if grandpa wanted to finish it. He got really stubborn about NOT doing it. So we told him he could either go ask grandpa if he wanted some, or he could go to his room. So, you know, he walked away, and we thought he was finally going to go ask my dad if he wanted some. No, no. Of course not. He went to his room! When he came back out, of his own volition, and we told him he had to go back since that's what he chose to do, he started crying and hugging my mom.

APPARENTLY, he was upset and hadn't wanted to go downstairs to ask grandpa because he "had a long hard day of making things." You know. From when he helped my sister cook. It was a long hard day. And he "just didn't want to be around Aunt Sarah right now." This was at one in the afternoon, I'll have you know.

It was, basically, the most amazing thing ever. I had to document it for myself, mostly. Oh, kids!

Rebekah

Oh, Tyson Ritter. I missed you.

So, the semester is over, as I so eloquently updated last time... And now I am home finally for Christmas break. I really, really wish I could have waited longer. I only came home yesterday because I was supposed to have a Doctor's appointment. Except that was cancelled, and I still had to come home. To do what? Absolutely nothing. And to sleep like crap because I can't sleep in this house, and to be annoyed at all hours of the day by my nephew and... I just don't like being home anymore. I prefer to stay at school.

Thankfully, though, I won't be here too long. I should go back the 30th or 31st. Huzzah.

Despite this past semester being quite possibly the worst ever, I came out of it pretty well. I got an A in Death, Burial and Culture. An A- in Research Methods and an A- in Theory. I was thrilled. But oh yeah, biggest accomplishment was that Credit in Mythology. ;) Just kidding. But like, it was the worst class ever, busywork busywork busywork. And it was boring. It's hard to imagine mythology was boring, but.. it was.

In other exciting news, GVSU dropped me from all my classes. It was very sweet and kind of them. I had half my tuition paid, okay. I really did. Federal loans cover most of it, but noooo, they still had to drop my classes. This is the first time they've done that, despite it happening quite often, thanks, over the past couple years. I was able to get... most of them back. Except for Capstone. Ho ho. You know, the class that is the culmination of all the work in my major, necessary for graduation... It's full. I mean, I e-mailed my professor and she said she'd get me a closed class permit, but I haven't heard back from her yet. And our registration system closes at 6 today until Jan 1. So like, awesome, that.

We'll see, I guess. It should be fine, and I shouldn't worry about it... But if I don't get into this class, there's no point in going back to school because I won't be able to graduate! Amazing.

Anyhow, that's how exciting my life is right now. Apart from the massive amounts of anime and fanfiction. But you know :P

Rebekah

the asemeter is oveferrrrrrrrrrr

DID YOU KNOW THAT DISNEY ISN'T REALLY PUSHING THEIR CHRISTIAN IDEALS ON US. DID YOU KNOW THAT? BECAUSE APPARENTLY, THAT IS NOT PART OF THEIR AGENDA. I LEARNED THAT IN CLASS TODAY. I MEAN, WILL WONDERS NEVER CEASE? I NEVER KNEW THAT OF YOU, DISNEY!

So.

This weekend I went to my first anime convention. It was, you know, interesting. I've been watching Naruto with my friend I met in London every week, and I'm getting there, I'm almost through the first part, not yet to Shippuden. ANYHOW, there were six of us. And the theme was the girls from Naruto! I was Tenten, but you know, having put together my costume last minute, it didn't actually look like her outfit, just something similar, you know? Like if it were an off day for her and she was wearing something different... Anyhow. Whatever. I wasn't in it very long. In fact, I didn't wear it at all today. Huzzah.

I wasn't feeling awesome most of yesterday due to lack of sleep, food and a bad case of nerves. Soooo... I spent most of my time in the hotel room. I skipped the masquerade and the rave. WHATEVER. I had fun today, though. Shopping was goodtimes, even if I didn't buy anything.

We had some.. car trouble. My friend was driving down, and another was going to meet us there a bit later because she had to work. Well, my friends car broke down about.. ten minutes from my house, amazingly. Which is an hour and twenty minutes from school, so we got that far! But alas. It was probably a good thing, though, because my mom was able to come and get us and drive us while the tow truck took the car. That's still not sorted out, but whatever. Mom let us take her car the rest of the way to Detroit, so that worked out. Even though we lost two hours of productivity. Alas!

Anyhow. Just.. documenting the weekend. It was not the best, but it was fun, I think. Now I'm just super tired and cold and have to do homework. Looking forward to the next one in January though! We've already decided on costume ideas. AND THIS TIME, I will actually work something out. :D :D It's gonna be sweet.

Rebekah

So, I have decided that I just can't sleep properly anymore. I lie down and I lay in bed, and I'll fall asleep for a few hours, and then it's to tossing and turning all night long. On the rare occasion that I do happen to fall asleep and stay asleep, I sleep like the dead, however the first noise that I hear wakes me up and keeps me up. Hoorah.

Basically, the point is, is that I slept like shit last night and I'm really tired. I don't know. It's been going on for several weeks now. I suspect it might be my pillow. Because for awhile, I had a medium soft pillow. And then I tried switching to a soft squishy pillow because my head was hurting. And that didn't work, so I tried my hard pillow. Which is much better, but it isn't enough. It only helped for a bit, and now I'm back to tossing and turning. Maybe if I just rotate constantly..

Blargh.

Also, sidenote. If you're ever curious to try liver. Please don't. It's fucking disgusting.

Rebekah

I'm upset. For various reasons.

I think I'll cave and eat potato chips and curl up on the couch.

Rebekah